Girl, you be killin' it.

It's been a while since I've written anything other than 140 character tweets, but that's the way the past couple of months have been. To call it busy would be an understatement. My calendar looks likes a multicolored mosaic of work, school, two-a-days, doctors appointments, everything but hanging with friends or happy hour. I can't remember when this whole thing started but I'll remember when it ended. First it was the RAGNAR, and then it was the marathon, then Torreya, and now this. Mike and I got into a fight last night and it wasn't good. He said that he's glad it's over, glad that I'm through with 3-4 hour workouts on week day evenings while he stays at home, glad to have a Saturday evening without pasta and glad to have me focused on something other than training. This whole week I've been really down. Maybe it's the fact that I've had the past year planned out perfectly for me, color coded and scheduled. Every meal was for fuel and every night's rest was for the next morning's run. This week is for strength building and next week I'll do some intervals as a test and two weeks from now I'll race a shorter distance to judge my progress. I wrote everything down in a little book and highlighted the disciplines. I took notes on how I felt and how I did with eating enough calories. I wrote when it was me and Sean. I wrote when I went solo. There are inspirational quotes and goals. My favorite is my new years resolutions. And here I am only days away from my last race of this season and I just want to run some effing miles already. I hate tapering and so does the chemical make up of my brain. Where's my seratonin? Where's the high that comes after a hard effort when every footstep you've taken for the past 5 miles rushes back into your body like frame by frame photography catching up. And then boom! That light feeling and the tingling in your fingertips. I don't know where this post was going, but I know that just because this is over doesn't mean I'm finished. Although it may feel that way, I still have a couple more to cross off my list.

1. 50k
2. Break 3:45 in the marathon
3. Build total strength like Vin Diesel
4. Break 23:00 in the 5k

See you at 4am, summertime.