Savannah Revisited

Let's make some doughnuts

All my things are in piles on my bed. There are clothes to throw away, clothes to give away, clothes to keep, all in preparation for the inevitable procrastination that is to come. Last night was a good wednesday- hospitality night at poor pauls. I am pretty sure that the one free drink you get and the $2 jack and diets should make up for the fact that you work in a hot kitchen or with rude customers all without a healthcare plan. Yes, it evens out in the end. I'm softening up towards the end of my tenure, realizing that I am going to miss people I didn't expect to. Lila Dodd? Who is going to give me health advice and teach me about the evils of caffine and sugar? It's taken me a while to consider these people my friends, I didn't jump right into it saying "You, you will be my friend and we will gallop through feilds of green and ivory". It was a slow progression full of respect and quiet resolve. But as the day draws near when I adopt a new home town and move on to the next step there is nothing in my mind but excitement and hope, and that in and of itself makes me happy.

A cooks tour revistited

It averages about 120 degrees in the summer time if you take the air temperature before and after you turn on the grill. That kitchen is a death trap and sooner or later one of us are going to go down. There's too much fire, too many sharp objects, too long hours. It's bound to happen. I love my job and the people I work with but it's summer time and our lives are falling apart and being sewn back together. Last night we threw the irish wake for Brian's mother and all night I had no idea what to say except "Yeah, I'll have another" or "Paula Abdul, get me some ping pong balls". Everybody hurts right now. Jason lost someone, Brian has to endure mothers day, and I still feel like part of me broke on April 19th. I'm having a hard time with this and summer has only just begun. It's only going to get hotter from here on out. There is so much I want to say but I just can't explain it.